Now you see it, Now you don't.

Saturday 17 Jul 2010 8.21pm

2010-07-17T05:20:00.000-07:00

i am very upset and feel dishearted the past 2 weeks...i cried very often the past few months. And i cried badly the whole afternoon today... i cried bcos i am thinking of him...i really miss him badly...i thg i can let go but the truth is i cant, that why i cried.

Whenever i think of him, i will hide in my room and cried. I learn to hide my feeling but its just out of control now...i do not know how to control my emotion over him... I love him too much and being hurt too deeply and badly.

I am suffering in great pain that no one know...and no one can help me... i feel so stupid and silly of myself.

He dont love me anymore but i still cannot accept the fact...i really miss him. God please save me, save me from this misery. My heart is in great great pain.

Days without you - 12May2010

2010-05-12T07:36:00.000-07:00

It's going to rain soon... I still feel sad n lost... I really miss him badly...
My eye keep tearing today when I m working... Cos I m thinking of him,
thinking why he left me, thinking why only leave me after we have been
together for almost 6yrs... Thinking why only tell me now that we have no
common topic... Why? Why now... What does our 6 yrs relationship mean
to you? I trusted you but you abandoned this relationship... U gave up on me so
easily.... I m deeply hurt by you... I have to hide myself at a corner to cry... Weep
under my blanket in the night... I really miss you and want you back... But you
chose not to give me one more chance n left me...

I m so miserable again today..... The pain is getting from bad to worse...

Days without you...11 May 2010

2010-05-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

Dear Z^^^,

I know that i m making u very irritating these few days... that why u asked me to stop all my nonsense... I m truly sorry and you never scolded me like this before, this is the first time and I guess is also the last time...Just wan to let u know that those msg that I wrote to you earlier are all my true feelings and thoughts except for the last one which "I congrats u"... I m seriously not picking on you or suspecting this or that.... I wrote this wrong msg cos I have gone crazy n chose the wrong method to face the truth. I know u dun love anymore, and I m dragging it cos I cannot accept the truth that u dun love me and leave me.

It's not easy for me... and I still love you and think of you everyday n whereever I go... when we r together, you made me feel that I m the most "xin fu" woman in this world. And I want to be by ur side and spend the rest of the life with you. Bcos I know u r not ready n stress, so i dare not tell u my thought to add burden to u by telling more things like what I want to stress u even more.

I only know that so long that we r together i feel contented n happy n be a simple woman behind ur back to support u. I m so silly, right? I have lost many things in life after u left me, i lost the most important person in my life and yes is you, i lost all my feelings, lost my laughter, lost my cheerful smile and misplaced my heart...i have lost confidence in myself, lost confidence in everything, have no faith in life...i have lost my courage to move on and lost the courage to face you again...i am so miserable and very sad.

U left me for a reason... And I can only blame myself for being so childish, naive, nv tell u my thought n kept everything to myself and keep quarrelling with you... Most importantly is that I dun know how to cherish you... and really is my misfortune not to have you.

Until u left me, I feel lost, empty n meaningless in life... I m so silly to understand now that I have not treat you well enough... My only regret in life is never treat u even better, nv cherish you, nv comunicate with you and tell u my thought n feeling... nv make you and ourself feel happy when we are together...

I really miss you, misses the days when we eat/shop in hk and holding ur hand when both of us r frighten by the turbulence, miss watching you playing ps3, miss ur smile, voice, laughter n serious look, miss ur creativity, passion in fashion n design, miss the days with you... I really miss you... I know u dun love me anymore but deep in my heart I still love you..... and always will...

Love you always, Carrie.

Days without you...

2010-05-03T19:02:00.000-07:00

It has been quite a while...the days without you is greatly miserable...remember the days we used to be together...knowing all your good and bad characters...memories are everywhere whereever i go...

it is not easy for me to let go...but you have made a decision and you have chose to let go this relationship... to you it may be a peaceful separation...but its not for me...i love you deeply and you will never know and understand how deeply you have hurt me...it hurt even more deeply than what you are experiencing now...it easy for you to move n but its not for me...

We have been together for almost 6 yrs and You have used a short few weeks to determine whether are suitable and told me we have nothing in common...then what have we done for the past 6 yrs..... does it mean nothing to you.

Please stop saying that its has been a wonderful memories and stop saying thank you for everything...it really hurts me... i have nv love someone as much as i love myself....i love you more than i love myself....

still remember the first time you hold my hand...you told me that "at this moment i started to hold ur hand and i will nv let go ur hand"..but in the end you still leave me and let go me...... do u really feel that we have no good future???

after so many weeks....i still misses you and dare not step into town...i still dont know how to control myself if i happen to meet you...i am so scared,

Tears keep falling everyday, every moments...and i still love you.

Bintan Trip - Jan 2009

2009-03-16T22:49:00.000-07:00

Christmas celebration 2008

2009-03-16T22:43:00.000-07:00

Check out this website!

2008-09-28T00:53:00.000-07:00

Have come across this website and find that they have nice and stylish stuff...like Uniqolo, Beams etc... bought a few items from them and services are good.

So if you are looking for great stuff, do check out this website http://www.fashionbambi.blogspot.com/

Anna Sui Comestic

2008-09-28T00:44:00.000-07:00

Decided to try Anna Sui products, so have purchased their eye brow powder & eye liner...

Nice color & special casing...

Dior Homme

2008-09-27T23:47:00.000-07:00

Dior Homme Red Key Pouch... bought this nice red color to replace my old one...weee!!!

Yohji Yamamoto-Y's skirt

2008-09-27T22:41:00.000-07:00

Bought this Y's skirt in HK.....

Take a look at this T-shirt and make a guess of this character...

If your guess is Mickey....oops...you got it wrong...wahaha

scroll down to look for answer...

Sera's birthday - 20 July 2008

2008-07-27T22:49:00.000-07:00

Sera is four years old now...

Nice foods in HK - 14 to 18 August 2008

2008-07-27T21:34:00.000-07:00

Foodcourt in Harbourcity - have many nice foods, eg: curry-in-a-hurry (right)

Kosmo wellness cafe located at Central is another nice place to eat and chill. They are serving nice organic foods. Foods are very tasty and delicious esp the cheesecake....(above and right)

Visit to SYP hse during CNY

2008-02-24T02:25:00.000-08:00

Company staff are invited to SYP's hse during CNY......His hse is very big and luxury style lo, 31/2 storey + swimming pool + 3 balcony + 1 big ktv rm + many calligraphy etc...... haiz rich man sia...

Head Porter - Dot Black Beauty

2008-02-24T01:58:00.000-08:00

Finally i have some times to post some pictures that i've took on my blog... and now i will post some pictures of my HP collections..... not alot oni 2 items nia......kekeke

First item: Head Porter card case

Second item: Head Porter shoulder bag
(bought this during my last trip to HK)

Fresh Imp x Adidas

2008-02-24T01:43:00.000-08:00

Ah Bby took part in this contest last year and won the best design title...

Bby, I'm so proud of you!

Agnes B - Pink notebook

2008-02-24T01:32:00.000-08:00

Have bought this from Agnes b...... its pink and lovely!

a SURPRISE Vday cake for Bby bby

2008-02-20T22:03:00.000-08:00

Have ordered this Vday cake for ah Bby and delivered to his office... Ah Bby got so 'SHOCK' to know that the cake is for him...kekeke

Valentine day gift

2008-02-20T22:00:00.000-08:00

Surprise from ah bby for this year valentine day. Thank you bby, I love the flower and the book very much...love ya!

Life in Nexia!

2008-01-22T17:00:00.000-08:00

Another boring day at work!

2008-01-18T00:05:00.000-08:00

Just received breaking news! Everyone will receive bonus on this month salary BUT will only receive the letter when my boss is back. That mean receive letter after the we get the money. Sigh! Really dun know whether is 2 mths or 1 mth or half a mth......

Super Mario Slippers

2008-01-17T01:11:00.000-08:00

Went HK on 6th Nov 07 and bought these 2 pair Mario slipper from ladies market!

So cute~ wee

Strawberries

2008-01-17T01:02:00.000-08:00

My colleagues bought some strawberries from amoy. These strawberries are from korea. It's so sweet and juicy!

Yummy~

Welcome to 2008!

2008-01-16T02:46:00.000-08:00

Nice fireworks at esplanade!

Surprise Christmas!

2008-01-16T02:26:00.000-08:00

SURPRISE!

Merry Christmas to my

dearest Hubby.

Hope you like the present.

Rainbow from my workplace

2008-01-16T02:21:00.000-08:00

A great view from my company and very lucky to see rainbow from my workplace.

Company Dinner & Dance - Retro Night

2007-11-25T01:13:00.000-08:00

Graduation 2007

2007-07-08T22:30:00.000-07:00

Sumatra 6.6 earthquakes

2007-03-06T05:00:00.000-08:00

EARTHQUAKES.......So scary!!!

At 11.30am, as usual i was about to leave office heading to bank to deposit some cheques......before i goes, i was chit chatting happily with my colleagues......Then suddenly i was spinning, at first i thought i was giddy, but it was not, it was the building that was shaking...... We were shocked..... couldnt react when i realised that the building was shaking. One of my company partner dashed out from her room and asked: "Is the builing shaking?" From this, then we woke up from our thought, we stood up and my office manager ran out to confirm with us that the building was shaking..... We quickly dashed out from our office. At first, we intend to take lift but we were told to evacuate using staircase......without hesitating, everyone of us walked down from 23rd floor to the ground floor.

By the time we reached the ground floor, we were all very tired and 'shag', we saw many other ppl waiting downstair with the same worries like us...... It was so scary. Even people from DBS tower and SGX also feel the tremble and the building was shaking. We all got so worried and dare not go back office. So everyone went out for early lunch. After the lunch, we went back to office again, praying that the earthquakes will not hit us again.

At around 1pm plus, i was doing some writing, there goes again, i start to feel giddy again. Then i heard my manager shouted:"Not again". The 2nd tremble was a short one, it lasts about 5 sec, then i stood up to check, immediately, the 3rd times of tremble hit again, this time was shaking badly then the first time, its last for about 20 over seconds. This time, everyone grabbed all our belongings and took lift down immediately. Cos the first time we walk down from staircase and our legs were all numb. Can you imagine walking down from 23rd floor to ground level????? Cant describe our feeling, worries and panic......

Everyone was waiting at downstair for further instruction from the management of the building but the management was not doing anything for us. So fuming mad. I was praying hard that we dont have to go back to work, who knows maybe there will be another round of tremble......some more our building was so old. It seems like the building will collapse any time after a few more times of tremble of the earthquakes. I do not wish to go back and work as we were all shocked and frighten about it. "Will the building collapse???? Is it safe to stay in the building????" my mind keeps flashing these questions.

Luckily, my boss allows us to dismiss early from work. As we are on our ways back, we still feels giddy. Maybe we are too shocked and scared. Even now, still can feel that i am giddy and my PC and the building was shaking, while writing this blogs. This was the most bad and memoriable experience i have ever had. Thanks god that we are all safe and fine now.

Hope that it will not happen again......

A lovely bouquet of flowers from my hubby on 14th Feb 2007

2007-02-15T06:54:00.000-08:00

Disneyland @ HK on Xmas day

2007-01-14T22:14:00.000-08:00

Trip to HK - 22 Dec to 26 Dec 06

2007-01-14T22:06:00.000-08:00

Collin Raye - Love, Me

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Clumsy act in office

2006-09-24T03:28:00.000-07:00

Last thursday, i was so sad and clumsy...hump...during lunch hours, i was about to leave my office room (our own account dept room). Then one of the audit manager came in our room wanting to know some information so i helping him. Then we left the room, withut knowing it, i accidentally locked the door. Oh gosh, after i came back fromt he bank, i saw my manager in the pantry so i asked her "oh you having lunch in the pantry" then she replied me cos i locked the office door. I got a shock, i didnt bring the key along lo...really very clumsy rite. Then i have no choice got to call a locksmith to help us unlock the door. So the locksmith came and within 5 mins, the doors was unlocked. Although the manager said use the petty cash to pay the locksmith but i decided to paid it cos it my fault by accidentally lockin up the door. What a bad day lo and have to pay this unnecessary expenses.

Forbidden city

2006-09-24T03:15:00.000-07:00

Last wed, i went for a show "Forbidden city at esplanade" with my ex colleagues. Wow its a very nice, touching and wonderful performance. And was my first time stepping in esplanade theatre for a show. Like a mountain tortoise right....kekeke...but really love the show and the atmosphere there.

My fren getting married

2006-09-24T03:11:00.000-07:00

Today i received a wedding invitation card from my secondary school friends, meiyan...yeah. She is going to get married lo...so so so happy for her. Really wish her the best and blessed this couple for their marriage. And will be invited to her wedding dinner...woohoo...will get to see all my ex school mate again...so happening.

My niece, Sera, doing a cute pose...so cute.

Bad day

2006-09-24T03:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i went shopping but was quite upset and disappointed. Cos the person who supposed to meet me was late. Hai, i really dislike people being late. Yes, this person did msg informing me that will be slightly late.

But it turns out to be when i reached the destination, i called and check where this person is and what i heard is that "I was about to leave my home". Can you inmagine that??? I was so upset.............. If a person were to be late and still at home, at least make an effort to inform the other party tat you haven leave the home so that the other party can come out abit later and not let the other party wait. When i was informed that this person still at home while i already reached the destination on time, i was really angry and upset. What a day...hai...Sigh!

Funny incident

2006-09-24T02:48:00.000-07:00

This is something funny...kekeke its about one person and i'll named this person as 'A'. As usual i took a train back and alight at woodlands, A wanted to go withdraw money so i acc A to the atm machine and we waited. While A was waiting i told A tat i will waited for A at the ezlink machine.

So A was waited, and finally was A turn to withdraw money, A did something very funny.....hahaha after A withdrew money A waited toward my direction and started to giggle. What did A did??? A told me that, A prepared a card n 10 bucks then when was A turns A moved toward the machine and was about to to insert the card "was actually an ezlink card" then he suddenly realised that he was to withdrawn money and not top up his ezlink card....mwahaha A was so embarassed for taking that exlink card and 10 buck who was ready to insert the note. I think the person behind A will think what happen to A, why is he taking an ezlink card n 10 bucks when A was at the atm machine. So funny A quickly kept the ezlink card n changed to atm card and withdrew the money kekeke... sorry "A" you know who you are but i promised i will not reveal who you are ok....

Weekend over...Tml is Monday Sigh!

2006-09-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

Been very busy today cos have alot things to do but haven finish my works...sobsob.
Nevermind i shall do it tml. SIGH...tml is monday...going to be monday blue. I hate monday. Why do we have to work? Can we dun work? IF only i strike some fortune then dun have to work or marry a rich guy also not a bad idea...nah fat hope...Piak piak...STOP DREAMING CARRIE.

*Baby Sera Sooooooo Cute*

Yeah its friday!

2006-09-01T08:19:00.000-07:00

Thank god it's Friday. Yeah...can relax and enjoy the weekend. Yesterday, my fren sms me telling mi that her fren just graduated and need a job now. So ask me if there is any lobang then i guess my ex company will need new staff as and when cos the turn over rate at my ex company is so so so high. So i msg my ex-colleague in EASB.

Through the conversation, i was being told that another of my colleagues, Evelyn, our Miss MBA resigning and yesterday was a last day. Of course, i msg her and congrats her to freedom... kekeke. And today, my HOD told me that the new staff replacing Lydia, works less than one month, is leaving. And the DOS was so moody these few days and keep scolding people. Hai...

Worse, my colleague also told me that the stupid jerk giving her problem again. This jerk is none other than the HOD for H & T. He is totally and indeed a jerk not a gentleman, childish and insecure fellow trying to be like an obedient dog to the director. Sickening fellow!!! He is giving my colleagues problem over air-con issue. Siao... everytime mention this jerk will make mi pissed off and scold him non stop.

Well, let skip, dun wish to mention abt him to dirty my blog. I really hope the new staff can stay longer in EASB provided the management treat the ACAD staff better and not to exploit them.

Coming back to my own job, i have been in my new company for 3 weeks. As usual, everyday a busy day, alot things to do. Really feel that 8 hrs of works is not enough to complete my task. Then have to bring back home n do. Sigh, but i would say i learn alot things on accounting. Maybe this is what i want to do, should really plan for my future...should i take ACCA or not.

**This is a picture taken from my new company pantry area.
Was taken during my lunch time.

My New job

2006-08-18T20:30:00.000-07:00

Haven got chance to write here since last week. Cos i am so tired after work, came back from work then bath then eat dinner then rest awhile then go sleep at 10plus. Really feel exhausted after work. Cos got so many accounts related stuff to do. Hai...even worse been disconnected from msn and other internet activities.

Cos my current company quite strict and professional. Cannot afford to have problem woth the server if not all our account related stuff sure gone. Well, in this new company, i get to learn alot new things and refresh my accounting knowledge. I can said that it a very challenging jobs. I hope i can excel from here.

Back track to 8 August 06

2006-08-11T07:45:00.000-07:00

Back track on Tuesday! Again, lazy to write at the end of the day, so trying to remember what happened on tuesday.

Oh yesh, Tuesday was so happening after work...We had another round of EASB ex-colleagues gathering. We made reservation with Seoul Garden and had a very wonderful dinner. After dinnes, we went to the Can cafe to chill out and have some drinks... woohoo~

http://carrieyang.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album01

Back track to 7 August 06

2006-08-11T07:32:00.000-07:00

Back track to Monday! Too lazy to write after of the day...

Monday after work, i went to collect the items that i purchased from Cards n Such. On my way back, i walked past watson and saw some cute cushions and is selling at $4.90 each. So i decided to bought 2 of them, one for me and the other one for ah bby.

Back to Cards n Such

2006-08-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

Last saturday, I bought some 1A curry puffs(very famous one...keke) from henderson rd, just behind my company, for my ex-colleagues of Cards n Such. I went back to get some gift for my EASB colleagues cos i m leaving soon sobsob. I bought a few gifts from there and they helped me to wrap it nicely. One of the item i saw in the shop, i love it so much but it was too expensive to purchase it so i took a photo of it. It's a cup with floral print and it comes with a flower designed saucer plate. It was awesome.

*A floral print cup with a flower designed saucer*

A farewell gift from Evelyn

2006-08-08T23:07:00.000-07:00

Last week, i was so busy keke no time to update my blog mwahahah... well, last week, my colleague gave me a present as a farewell gift so nice of her, its a seashell photo, so nice... I loved it. But one things very funny, i think the shop assistant forgot to take the magazine pic that they put in...i realised it a photo of one of the member in F4 - Jerry Yan. whahahah even worse my colleague didnt realise that there was a price tag....heehee so funny. Anyway, its a count that thought, i love the photo frame. So sweet. Thanks evelyn for the gift.

*Ocean blue seashell photo frame*

KTV sessions

2006-08-06T19:48:00.000-07:00

KTV session with EASB colleagues on 25th July 2006. After looking at the photo, i realise i have PUT ON WEIGHT...on my god. Even my lecturer told me i have put on weight since i joined this company. Sad sad sad...got to go on diet...hmm

http://poohlcm.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album08&page=1

4 more days with EASB

2006-08-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

Counting down to my last day - 4 days left! After this, i will move on to a new environment. Being a low wages employee for abt 6 months and worked so hard but not appreciate by the management and superior. Haiz, sad sad sad... there is no more good excuses for me to stay on. What i have done and all the efforts was useless. In return, i get nothing. But i have glad that i have a bunch of nice colleagues. Although everyone has left, i still miss the times that we used to have.

Above is a picture of my desk at EASB academic dept.

Sobsobsob!!!

One day training

2006-07-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

Today, i took leave to go to my new company for training. The accountant and the account asst are very friendly and during lunch time the accountant treated us lunch. After lunch, we went back office and continue to learn the job. But it was not easy, feeling so stress to take over that job...haiz. Too long never touch accounting enteries, now all the task look so unfamiliar to me. Really worried that i may not handle well. But i will still try to do my best. Hope i can cope well.

Drawn by Hubby. *Does she look familiar...keke*

Our colleagues' last day with EASB

2006-07-27T06:47:00.000-07:00

Today is Jenny and Lydia last day of work...so sad sobsob. Going to miss them...hope to have gatering soon. Here are all my colleagues:

Back row: Mandy(Miss Student Care), Evelyn (Miss MBA), Jeannie (Miss English), Jenny ( Miss Exam), Carrie (Miss Exam - English), Lydia (Miss BA)

Front row: David (Mr Student Care), Angela (Former Miss DHT), Wilson (Former Mr Marketing Exe), Joyce (Miss DHT)

This photo was taken when our dear chia min's last day of work (Front row right). She is our former Miss DBM program coordinator. So sad everyone has left and we shall welcome our new colleagues.

YEAHYEAHYEAH

2006-07-27T01:15:00.001-07:00

It has been quite sometimes that i have not been here. Time flies, after graduated last oct, haven been workin temp for 2 mths at WBG network, then 1 mth temp at TTSH thereafter joined my current company as a perm staff since jan 06. Today, i have been with EASB for abt 6 mths...wow wee!!!

But i m leaving soon cos not really happy with the management but i have got a chance to know a bunch of wonderful colleagues...Michelle left evelyn came to replace her, Chia min left sarah came 2 wks later, yunita left lydia came to take over but tml is her last day, angela left and handover to joyce, wilson left and wah cheng replace him, tml will be jenny's last day with EASB and welcome qian ping to replace her, as for me, my last day of service will be on next mth and i waiting for my replacement to come...who will be next??? Have alot of wonderful times with all of them and will miss all the fun when we are all together in the acad dept.

Today, i m invited by one of the lecturer for lunch with jenny and lydia cos we are leaving. A very nice and good lecturer, used to buy us "CHI CHEONG FAN" for breakfast, after i left i will miss the special CHI CHEONG FAN and all the jokes. Back to the lunch topic, we went to griller at tiong bahru plaza, nice foods and nice utensils used.

Date of photo: 26 Jul 06

Edmund's wedding photo - 18 May 06

2006-07-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

New Blog

2006-07-27T01:06:00.000-07:00

I have created a new blog for myself yeah, cos the old one being hooked by some irritating adv. Sigh!!! Well, I shall start a new one now...keke!